Gerard Way Singing "Umbrella" By Rihanna

This cheers me up a slight bit. :)

My rabbit had to be put to sleep today. She had lung cancer.

As I was saying goodbye to her, a Smashing Pumpkins song came on the radio. When my mom came over, "Hey There Delilah" by Plain White T's came on the radio. It's Chloe's song now.

Bye girlie girl. I love you.


Hey there Delilah
What's it like in New York City?
I'm a thousand miles away
But girl tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
Times Square can't shine as bright as you
I swear it's true

Hey there Delilah
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice it's my disguise
I'm by your side

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me

Hey there Delilah
I know times are getting hard
But just believe me girl
Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar
We'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good

Hey there Delilah
I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath away
I'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me

A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
Delilah I can promise you
That by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame

Hey there Delilah
You be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
You'll know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there Delilah here's to you
This ones for you

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me.

I don't consider myself to be a particularly "angry" person, but do you realize how many good names there are to call people? For example:

Dipshit
Asshat
Asshole
Prick
Dickhead

So on and so forth.

No real point to this post. I just felt like cursing.

Plus, I suggest you check out the song "It's Much Better To Learn" by Saosin. And "Shut Me Up" by Mindless Self Indulgence. I could go on and on.

Aw shit. A Hawthorne Heights song just came into my head. I hate them.

I was watching Steven's Untitled Rock Show this morning, and Steven was interviewing Gerard Way. One of the questions was "If you could ask anything to your fans, what would it be?" He answers "What does My Chemical Romance mean to you?"

I thought about that for a good while.

First off, I like music that makes me feel something ridiculously overwhelming when I listen to it. Whether it be sadness, happiness, amusement, whatever. My Chemical Romance does that to me. For example, when I listen to Welcome To The Black Parade, my heart explodes with emotion. I sit there and I think "How do people make music like this? How can a band make a song that is so moving that you want to cry every time you hear it? How can a song make you feel so overwhelmingly sad and happy at the same time?" Few songs do that to me. "Voices" by Saosin does it.

My Chem has changed my life completely. I am eternally grateful.

Before I go, let me write a quick bit about Saosin. You guys have made me so happy in the short time I have been a fan.

You know what won me over? Your passion, your energy at the show I went to. You guys were amazing, and made that moment so special for me. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

-Fracky

Welcome To Madina Lake

The band itself sets its music in a town created in the mind of the bass player, Matthew Leone. It is set high in the American mountains, and, isolated from human contact, has remained in a 1950s themed era. The music provides an outlet for the band's views on politics, culture, and the media's obsession with celebrity status. The theme behind the band's music is in relation to the mystery of Adalia. The album artwork shows images of her and the mysteries behind her and the town of Madina Lake.


I adore how Madina Lakes's music is created off an imaginary town. A place to escape into your mind. The places your mind can go are limitless. I, am a hopeless dreamer, so this entirely pleases me, and makes me love Madina Lake.

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Copied out of Wikipedia.

Amazing amazing amazing interview with Saosin.

That's it. Saosin has now taken over my life.

Saosin Interview

Gahhh. I love them.

Though, I do like some Fueled By Ramen bands. Hey, we all have our guilty pleasures, right?

Who are we kidding. I like most Fueled By Ramen bands.

That just means I have diverse taste in music. I like punk. Heavy Metal. Rock. Pop. Screamo. R&B. EVERYTHING.

I am freakishly picky about my pop though. It's odd. I'm odd.

I feel like a teenie now. One thing though, I'M NOT GOING TO CHANGE MY TASTE IN MUSIC SO PEOPLE WILL LIKE ME. I HAVE DONE THAT FOR TOO LONG. I AM NO LONGER GOING TO DO THAT.

Whoa. Caps overload.

So yeah. Sorry Saosin. You can't help what you like and don't like. Me, I like pretty much everything. If I ever met you guys (properly) you probably wouldn't like me. It would be cool if you did, and I wish you would, but you probably wouldn't. It's the truth.

Wow. I have completely gotten off the subject. Read the interview.

-Fracky

FUSL # 18

I'm only going to do a couple more of these, because nobody cares about them, so why make them? I just had an overwhelming wave of feeling like a teenie bopper. Ick.

1. Karma Police (Live)
Panic! at the Disco (Radiohead Cover)

Wow, I really like this. I don’t know if I like the Radiohead version or this better. Hmmmm.

2. Best Guitar Solos
Made by: Dragonforceisfav

Holy shit. I practically choked when I heard the Dragonforce guitar solo. Ahhh, Van Halen, AC/DC, and Metallica. Good times. Let me just leave you with two more words: AVENGED SEVENFOLD.

3. Lying Is The Most Fun A Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off (Live)
Shmanic! at the Shmisco (Really Panic! at the Disco, but I found this funny)

They sound surprisingly good here. I guess I’m just in a Panic! at the Disco mood. I haven’t listened to their music in forever.

4. Thrash Unreal
Against Me!
New Wave


5. Sleepers
Saosin
Saosin

Yeah… enough said.

6. You’re Not Alone
Saosin
Saosin

I know this is one of the weaker songs on Saosin’s CD, but for some reason, I adore it. Whenever I hear it I have to belt it out at the top of my lungs. It’s pretty funny actually. ;)

7. Voices
Saosin
Saosin

Yeah, I know, another Saosin song. But this song is really special to me because when I went to Projekt Rev, this was one of the two songs I knew by Saosin. So when they played it, and I was so close to the stage, and there’s just nothing like seeing a band live, AND screaming along the words. So, as I said, this song is really special to me.

This song is completely amazing too. It’s so passionate, and the video is amazingly amazing. Everyone should take a moment to watch this video, and appreciate it.

8. Pandora
Madina Lake
From Them, Through Us, To You

Ok, so first off, sorry about the picture slideshow. Second, I completely adore this song.

9. Here I Stand
Madina Lake
From Them, Through Us, To You

This song is so adorable. This band is adorable too.

10. Apologize
OneRepublic
TBA

Such a beautiful song.

11. Evolution
Korn
Untitled

I really really really like this song.

12. Kiss Of Dawn
HIM
Venus Doom

I’m pretty conflicted about this song. I like it, but I hate it at the same time. I HATE Ville Valo (lead singer). He seems like a self-centered prick to me. Hey, that’s just my opinion.

13. One-Eighty by Summer
Taking Back Sunday
Where You Want to Be

LOVE.

14. Error: Operator
Taking Back Sunday
Louder Now

I *think* they played this at Projekt Rev, I don’t quite remember.

I did what?

Ok so, for the first time, in my fan fiction reading history, someone has used my name as the lead character.

So the entire time I'm like:

I did what?
I fucked WHO?
I said that?

Wow. Just. wow.

-Fracky

P.S. Again, yes, I read Fan Fiction. It really doesn't matter to me that in the stories there are "famous" musicians. I like them because there are some GOOD writers out there. It's just like reading a book, that the characters happen to have the same name as guys in bands.

DAMN SAOSIN. again.

They have no tour dates near me.

Uggg, I really wanted to see them again along with Alexisonfire and Norma Jean.

I really really like Saosin's music. They were so cool live. Damn.

Scratch that.

I really really LOVE Saosin's music, and they sound good live. As oposed to My Chem, who sounded horrible live.

I have a new favorite band.

DAMN SAOSIN.

For making their song "You're Not Alone" STUCK IN MY FUCKING HEAD.

Daaaammmnn.

Projekt Revolution- My Merch

Yeah I know. Saosin totally roped me in. The guitar pick was free though.




My signed Saosin CD.


My signed Saosin shirt.


Here's the front of the shirt.

Projekt Revolution- SAOSIN!

Sorry about all the pictures of Saosin. We got so many good ones that I didn't want to pass any up. I have a couple that I didn't post. :) Go look at my other picture posts and my recap of the concert.

Saosin was seriously the highlight of the concert for me. Fuck My Chemical Romance. I loved Saosin the most. I was so freakin close to the stage that a crowd surfer came my way and my mom pulled me away from it. :( Damn you mom.

One of the dudes from Saosin signing my CD. Keep in mind, I don't really know all of their names or what instruments they play. I wasn't a big fan up until yesterday. :)


Saosin signing.


Some Saosin spit action on my CD. God, I'm such a nerd.


That's a great picture.






More of Cove.




Cove Reber, lead singer of Saosin. (I finally learned his damn name!)

Projekt Revolution- Revolution Stage Bands

Mike Shinoda with Styles Of Beyond.

Mike Shinoda with Styles Of Beyond!

Crowd surfing!

More crowd surfing!

Madina Lake signing.

Told you I was close to them. :)

Projekt Revolution- Main Stage Bands

I have to break these posts up because I have so many pictures. Saosin will get it's own post because I have a ton of amazing pictures of them. :)

My Chemical Romance.

HIM.

My Chemical Romance.

Placebo.

Tour Bus.

Taking Back Sunday.

Taking Back Sunday

Projekt Revolution 8/19/07

Oh. my. fucking. god.

Amazing. Just. Amazing.

I'll start from the beginning. We're waiting for the gates to open, and the guy behind us is REALLY cute. Like, REALLY REALLY cute. Redhead, lip piercing, Taking Back Sunday t-shirt, the whole nine yards. Uber hyper, starts talking to his girlfriend, talking about concerts they had been too. He starts on about Green Day, and bad-mouthing them. The cute guy then realizes I'm wearing a Green Day hat apologizes, and PATS my head. :)

On to when we get in there. We had this whole ordeal about not being able to bring in backpacks, but my mom needs her backpack, because it has her medical supplies in it. Let me just say, my mom is badassssss. We totally got to bring in the backpack. :)

NOW, on to the bands I saw. We missed most of Madina Lake, but what I heard was awesome. We were so FLIPPING close to the stage, it was so awesome. Styles Of Beyond was AMAZING! Mike Shinoda (from Linkin Park) came on stage and rapped with them. I danced, screamed, and waved my hand in the air like I just didn't care. :)

Didn't get to see The Bled, because my mom got really hot, so we went over to shade, while they performed.

Now, on to one of the many big kahunas. SAOSIN. I went in there only knowing two songs by them. They were FUCKING AMAZING! I was so close to the stage, got some great photos of the lead singer.

Then, we went over to were Saosin was having a signing, and waited in line for about an hour. There was a dude going up and down the line selling Saosin CDs and I got one for ten bucks.

But, now on to the part that made my entire day. I got my Saosin t-shirt and CD (That I bought today, mind you) signed by ALL OF SAOSIN. FUCK YEAH. The bass player smiled at me, (Hee hee) and the lead singer winked and said "hey sweetie" to my MOM. Yeah. PLUS, the first guy from the Saosin (sorry, I can't tell them apart, or their names, or what instrument they play) put my CD in his mouth to hold it while he signed the t-shirt. I totally have Saosin spit on my Saosin CD. Chyea. lol.

So while all of this was going on, Mindless Self Indulgence was performing. I REALLY REALLY liked them. Plus, also while we were waiting in line, Madina Lake was doing a signing, so I was like six or seven feet away from them. Plus, a guy from Madina Lake looked at me. :)

We got up to the main stage in the middle of Julien-k. I REALLY liked them. Placebo I didn't like at all, HIM I didn't really like either. Taking Back Sunday was REALLY REALLY cool.

But on to the BIG kahuna. My. Chemical. Romance.

I screamed SO loud when they came on. I'm seriously going to have no voice tomorrow, because I screamed, and sang along to every song. I jumped, danced, head-banged, you name it. I looked like an COMPLETE idiot. But, on the main stage, we had lawn tickets, so we were REALLY far away from the stage. Saosin, Mindless Self Indulgence, Styles Of Beyond, The Bled, and Madina Lake were on the Revolution Stage, and you can go anywhere you want. That how we got so close.

Yeah. Gerard Way sounded like shit, but it was fun anyway. A guy was wearing the same Avenged Sevenfold shirt as me. Um, what else. I don't know. I think that's it.

My throat hurts, my head hurts, and I'm exhausted, but I had a blast. Saosin is now in my top three favorite bands, and I have a tiny crush on the lead singer. I know, just stamp HYPOCRITE across my ass.

Pictures tomorrow. I'm too damn tired now.

-fracky :)

EDIT: Here are the pictures from the concert that I posted on my blog.

Saosin
Revolution Stage Bands
Main Stage Bands
My Signed Merch

Just take a look at that:

The Young Wild Things Tour

You know I wanna go. With all my hard feelings about Fall Out Boy and Pete Wentz, It would still be cool to see them and Gym Class Heroes, Plain White T's, and Cute is What We Aim For.

All the live performances I saw on TV by Fall Out Boy, have really SUCKED. So if I go to this, hopefully none of the bands will suck.

I would have to go to the concert with my mom. Don't know how much she will like it. :)

Stuff that happened the year I was born. Copied out of Wikipedia.

March 1 - The grunge band Nirvana plays its final show in Munich.

March 12 - A photo by Marmaduke Wetherell, previously touted as 'proof' of the Loch Ness monster, is confirmed to be a hoax.

March 21 - Film director Steven Spielberg's film Schindler's List wins 7 Oscars, including Best Picture, at the 66th Academy Awards.

April 8 - Kurt Cobain, lead singer of Nirvana, is found dead in Seattle, Washington. He was last seen alive 3 days prior, and his death is believed to have been a suicide.

April 29 - Commodore International declares bankruptcy. (My birthday)

June 12 - Nicole Brown Simpson and Ronald Goldman are murdered outside the Simpson home in Los Angeles, California. O.J. Simpson is later acquitted of the killings, but is held liable in a civil suit.

June 17 - NFL star O.J. Simpson and his friend Al Cowlings flee from police in his white Ford Bronco. The low speed chase, which unfolds live on television, ends up at Simpson's mansion in Brentwood, Los Angeles, California, where he then surrenders to police.

September 22 - The long-running American sitcom Friends premieres on NBC, eventually becoming part of NBC's Must See TV comedy blocks on Thursdays.

December 19 - Civil unions between homosexuals are made legal in Sweden.

Mayday Parade

You see the dude with the big curly hair? We're like twins! Except my hair isn't blond, but I to have big curly hair.

But anyways, that's Mayday Parade. An awesome band. Check them out.

Some want to kiss some want to kick you
There's not a net you couldn't slip through

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Lyrics from "Brianstorm" by The Arctic Monkeys

Fart Out Boy- Sugar, We're Goin Down

Am I more than you bargained for yet
I’ve been dying to tell you anything you want to hear
Cause that’s just who I am this week
Lie in the grass next to the mausoleum
I’m just a notch in your bedpost
But you're just a line in a song
(A notch in your bedpost, but you're just a line in a song)

Drop a heart and break a name
We’re always sleeping in, and sleeping for the wrong team

We’re going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we’re going down swinging
I’ll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it

We’re going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we’re going down swinging
I’ll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it

Is this more than you bargained for yet
Oh don't mind me I'm watching you two from the closet
Wishing to be the friction in your jeans
Isn’t it messed up how I’m just dying to be him
I’m just a notch in your bedpost
But you're just a line in a song
(Notch in your bedpost, but you're just a line in a song)

Drop a heart and break a name
We’re always sleeping in, and sleeping for the wrong team

We’re going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we’re going down swinging
I’ll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it

We’re going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we’re going down swinging
I’ll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it

Down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we’re going down swinging
I’ll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it

We’re going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we’re going down swinging
I’ll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it

We’re going down, down
(Down, down)
Down, down
(Down, down)
We're going down, down
(Down, down)

A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it

We’re going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we’re going down swinging
I’ll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it


God, I feel like such a hypocrite. But, I have to say, Fall Out Boy still does it to me. When I hear one of their songs, I still feel a little weak. The bass line in Dance, Dance still makes me go insanely weak. Patrick Stump's vocals in I've Got All This Ringing In My Ears And None On My Fingers still makes me smile.

As much as I really hate the band members (coughPeteWentzcough), and I KNOW that they don't make the best music in the world, something about their music just... makes me go weak sometimes. Other times, I sneer (FTW?) and and say, well, I don't know. But you catch my drift. I hope.

I know you guys are probably REALLY fucking tired of me ranting about Fall Out Boy, and their music, and Pete Wentz, and how I feel about the band, but I hope you understand. Fall Out Boy has put me through such shit, and made me feel such SHIT. Pete Wentz especially. It's just been *mostly* a shitty relationship. I remember the happy times, when I *thought* (thought being the key word) I was in love with Pete. I admired the band members whole-heartedly, I respected them, I adored the music that they made. I listened to it all the time. I stood up for them, because everyone I knew hated them. Yes, in my naive mind, I loved them.

But on to the song that I posted above. The sad thing is, I can STILL recognize it by it's opening chords. Yep. It was over played so much, that I find it annoying. But, when I actually take the time to listen to it, I find myself loving the vocals and lyrics. The guitar still annoys me a bit.

As you can see, I was put through a tad bit of shit with this band. I sometimes find myself hating the fact that, one tiny band, one stupid person, have so much, I don't know, control over my feelings. People I have never MET.

So, Fart Out Boy, go on with your selling out. I hope you enjoy it.

I hope you aren't completely bored reading this. :(

Self-Inflicted Violence is NOT something to be taken lightly. If you or someone you know is struggling with SIV, help can be found at www.myspace.com/towriteloveonherarms or http://twloha.com/. Stop the bleeding. Believe your voice can mean something.


It is estimated that 15% or roughly 17 million Americans suffer from depression.

It affects rich and poor, young and old, black and white.

2/3 are never treated.

They do not recognize the illness, and see it as a weakness or personality flaw.

Untreated depression is the most common cause of suicide.

In Australia, New Zealand and Japan, there are more suicides than murders.

Suicide is the third leading cause of death among young people.

Depression is treatable.

Cutting was very much a mystery until 1996 when Princess Diana admitted that she had struggled with it.

Self Injurers use physical pain as an attempt to calm or numb the psychological pain or stress. They injure the outside in an attempt to release the pain on the inside.

Self Injury is an attempt to stop the hurting, an attempt to be clean.

Self injurers and addicts seek the familiar, even if its pain. This is completely foreign to most people.

Self injurers believe pain is their only option, using greater external pain as a relief from the pain inside.

There is hope.

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